It’s that time of year, where I start making lists of things I want to get done over the Christmas break. Initially I wasn’t going to be taking any time off work due to not having a lot of leave available to me. But honestly, I am completely wiped out right now and am desperate for a break from not just work, but pretty much everything. I’m taking 2 weeks to be completely and utterly selfish, because I so desperately need it right now.
So what am I going to do?
Well firstly, I’m going to be taking a break from pretty much everything I do in addition to the game – I won’t be doing Battletagged or Reins of Azeroth for at least 2 weeks, and after this Friday Z and Cinder’s Blog Challenge will be taking a break until the new year, too. That’s not to say I won’t be blogging – I just won’t be committing to doing it during that time if I don’t feel like it. I imagine there will be some raiding free evenings (just waiting to hear back from the team about which days for sure are cancelled), but I think for a few at least, whether or not I raid will depend on how I’m feeling at the time, and I’ll be more likely to make plans on raid nights in those 2 weeks if the invitation arose (wouldn’t dream of doing that any other time of the year!)
As for everything else, well that’s up in the air.
My main goal for this break is
- to play whatever I want to play, whenever I want, and…
- to not feel guilty about it
Sometimes that means I might not play at all, and will laze around reading (which I haven’t done for the longest time). I want to spend time with Thor playing Boardgames. Or playing Overwatch or Heroes of the Storm, or even Bordelands (which I bought MONTHS ago and haven’t even downloaded yet) without feeling guilty.
There has been a lot of guilt this expansion. It comes naturally with raiding at a higher level – there are expectations and requirements – and that’s all fine because that’s what I signed up for. That’s not anyone’s fault. But it does come at a cost. A lot of time and effort gets put into getting Artifact Power for my weapon to make it stronger, and trying to score a legendary that will increase raid performance. Unfortunately my time is pretty limited. I work full time, so there goes most of the week. Monday nights are generally spent writing podcast show notes; Tuesday nights are podcast recording nights and usually server restarts/maintenance; Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday nights are raiding; Friday night Thor and I try to spend as “us” time away from the game (though I try to get my emissary quests done quickly when I get home!); Saturday is when I try to do my blog challenge post; Saturday night has a casual raiding night that I usually go to. So it leaves part of Saturday day and Sunday day to cram in a week’s worth of Artifact Knowledge acquisition, along with anything else I might like to try and do in game (like mount farming etc.) It gets pretty busy.
Don’t get me wrong – I’m not the busiest person in the world. How people do this with children is absolutely beyond me! But I am trying to fit a lot of stuff into a set amount of time, and sometimes it’s hard, especially when not all of those pieces are playing nicely. Work has been incredibly stressful this year, and on far too many occasions I feel like I should have taken the redundancy when everyone else did instead of staying on. It’s been a constant struggle of change, insecurity and stress that makes it harder to juggle loads of other things at the same time. I have to admit that on more than one occasion I have seriously considered cancelling my WoW account and just walking away from all of it. But I haven’t (obviously), for 2 reasons:
- WoW is more than the game – it’s the people and the friends I’ve made
- Why should I give up the good things in my life to be able to deal with the shitty things?
So anyway, the point of this time is just to be separate from everything, chill out and not feel bad about anything.
And maybe do a giant spring clean of our apartment. 🙂
Anyone else taking time out over the holidays?